The way I am

My sis's gone.

Walked around the city I hoped for, cried so badly.

And I faced this building which made me "Cry me a river" few months ago.

I cannot give up my dream job(not goal of my life though), but I also cannot give up life in UK. 

What should I do?

Getting exhausted, scared, frustrated.

I am still too young to make heavy decision of life.