this too shall pass?

Yesterday, I finally decided (or not able) to go Sweden.

This Monday, I found emptiness, helpless myself in here.

I was passionate, outgoing, and future oriented but I changed 180 degrees in here.

I couldn't find what I want, what I can, and what I will do.

I can't say out what I am doing, I know it's bit(lot) shameful to say do nothing.

I was IMPORTANT, SMART, NEEDED

but now, who cares?

I found that I even don't have friend to call without Wing and her friends, I don't have my own group. All I want is just friends to have cups of coffee with, talking, goshipping, giggling for a bit. What I doing now instead? GO GYM and RUN! AND GOBBLING FOOD TO FILL EMPTINESS HEART.

I haven't suffered this dirty poor situation as well, to be honest Korean prices are lower than here but I'd spent twice or more than here. I couldn't use credit card anymore, no installments too. I need to think and think to spend even penny, and finally just put down stuff I've picked up.

If I could guarantee this too shall pass, I would not mind to bear it though. I am wandering I can pass this endless darkness moment.